March 21st marked a year since my husband became ill. Some of what happened is now a blur, while other bits and pieces feel as if they happened seconds ago. And while I wish for us to never live that year again, I can honestly say I received wondrous gifts that could never have happened otherwise.
So here I am a year later.....
discovering God has a plan for me, always has
I discovered a new church that reawakened my faith more than I ever thought possible. Now don't get me wrong, my faith in God was ALWAYS in my heart but my beliefs were dormant.There was no desire to go to church or read scriptures or pray...and when I did it was without much hope and feeling. Now that I actually FEEL God's presence in my life my connection with Him feels tangible....I see Him in everything.
Each day feels like a gift with new opportunities to live a more meaningful and selfless life. I see my journey in life more clearly....and in that clearer path the knowledge that God has guided my every step and inspiration all along.
I recall during the year that in coping with my husband's illness the emotional chaos became contagious in our home...the studio probably suffering the most. I rarely crafted in the room, instead running in for this and that, and crafting near my family in the living room. I shared a glimpse of the studio's sad state here. Looking back I realize the chaos I created in the studio was parallel to what was happening in my (our) life that year.
but little by little....
this girl was discovering God has a plan, always has
The new year inspired....my one word, surely His doing. And in clearing the studio from the unnecessary, I have discovered that my little studio is more than just four walls with a quirky girl's artistic style sprinkled everywhere. It is a place to celebrate my faith, to create in His name.
I am constantly inspired and even though my crafting time is still limited I cherish the time more than ever and just wait for the moments of crafting to present themselves. No scheduling, or sacrificing of family time....just waiting because.....
He has a plan, always has
And check out that floor! It exists, ha!
I'm off to enjoy the beautiful weekend, hope you do the same my friends!
Before I go, today's quote (from my daily devotional book):
In a day when many challenge the inspiration and infallibility of God, faith and reason are not necessarily opposed. But when reason won't take you another step, faith keeps on going because it connects you to God. If you look you will see him at work everywhere-including your own life.